There are certain things I want in 2012. Things in my business and in my personal life.
These aren’t “things” to buy so much as they are ways to be, experiences to enjoy, moments to create. Sure, there may be a few moments of retail therapy involved, but not so much as one might expect.
- I want to get my files in order and a smooth-as-silk workflow happening in my business.
- I want to clean my office. Again. And I want it to stay that way for more than 48 hours.
- I want my basement finished so my girl and I can have our craft area so the beads and papers and fabric aren’t spread out over the living room – and said office. A bathroom down there would save some steps while I’m working in that office too.
- I want time to do fun stuff. I miss my stitching and scrapbooking and quilting and drawing. I don’t play any more.
- I want all my photos organized and sorted and archived so the scrapbooking would be a helluva lot easier to do if I do manage to carve out the time.
- I want my garage cleared out and organized – with shelves and cupboards and no crap spreading out all over the floor, so I can actually park my friggin car in there next winter.
- Actually, come to think of it, I want a NEW vehicle to park in there next winter. Make it two. Both our vehicles have to travel with defibrillators because they could drop any second and not get back up.
- I want the kids to pick up after themselves and not expect me to keep track of their various papers and knick-knacks. My god, they’re teens now. I shouldn’t have to do that. If they made this small change, they’d fall in the category “damn-near-perfect”.
- I want my husband to take me out on dates. I’m not talking about the $10 Chinese buffet lunch on payday. I mean get dressed up nice, have dinner at a ‘fancy’ restaurant, take in a movie, maybe go dancing… It’s been over 20 years since I’ve been on a dance floor, and my butt would confirm that fact.
- I want my bills paid. Every month. On time.
- I want money left over after the bills are paid so I’m not starving before my husband’s next paycheck hits the bank.
- I want a steady flow of money coming in instead of the roller coaster income I have now. Enough to pay the bills, support my business and be comfortable enough to use the debit card between hubby’s paydays without holding my breath.
- I want to know what needs to get done in a day – and then actually get it all done.
- I want those days to involve no more than 8 hours of work so I can get some rest. I’m tired of being tired.
- I want a holiday. A real holiday, one that involves getting on a friggin airplane and going someplace that is fun, or warm, or both. Spousal accompaniment: optional. (I’ve waited 20 years for a date, for crying out loud. I’m not waiting that long again for a decent vacation.)
Yes I acknowledge that I already have a lot more than many people. I’m blessed with good health, smart-healthy-all-around-great kids, a loving spouse, supportive friends, a rock-star team. I live in a beautiful home and we somehow manage to find enough to eat.
I’m just weary of the struggle. Even if it’s not related to the business, I look around and there’s always massive undertakings still to be done. The house, the yard, the kids, the UFO’s (UnFinished Objects, as in craft projects). Even though I have all these wonderful blessings, there are days when I find it a challenge to even appreciate and enjoy them.
I want 2012 to be different. I want the struggling to end. I want life to be peaceful, abundant, easy.
I want to just BE.
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